Sunday, December 31, 2017

Christmas Special—WATER BOTTLE EARNED


Angel of Austin Mode
 


 MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!
Got to Austin
Found Work
Worked Hard
Saved the monies!
Bought the Bike!!

LionHeart and Gear are safely in Storage

Introducing...
NIGHT RIDER

Found this near my camp
Perfect.

To The Ride!


The Way I see it all this stuff is here just for us to utilize
But don't let stuff and Game State confuse you
What's important are People
Especially The People in Your Life that you Cherish
Your Loved Ones
The Ones that have a Special Place in Your Heart
A Place that is Free

So I rode all NIGHT
And made it to Galveston
The Plan was to retrace my coastal route on the bicycle
I stopped in Galveston to see my friends I'd made there
And wouldn't ya know it...
The Clutch Cable just snapped!

A small thing and the whole vehicle was out of commission

I fell too
Luckily the right foot rest and brake pedal snapped
My ankle was a little crushed—might've fractured something
With all the blisters from the days of wet shoes walking became pretty painful
But I could still ride!

Luckily I'd made some friends in Galveston
So I had a place to put the bike and my things
'til I could find a way to repair NIGHT RIDER in the morning
Thanks Mark and Rebel!

Guess it's a NIGHT out in Galveston then!

 

 

Sorry if I offend
I'm not monogamous
That doesn't mean My Love isn't real
If anything My Love for the special women in my life is beyond normal bounds
I feel it vividly every day
And there's honestly nothing I care about more


Thanks to some Kind and Loving Gentleman I was able to fix NIGHT RIDER and escape Galveston the next day!
The bags on the back are all gifts
In addition of food, bamboo, and necessities.
So basically I was like a Ninja Santa Clause

I made it to Cameron LA
When NIGHT RIDER decided to not want to NIGHT RIDE anymore
So I had to push this mega-bike back to town a few miles
Luckily I was retracting my route I had just ridden through on the bicycle
So I knew there was a little Ma and Pa spot back in the town of Cameron I could sit at
Took me all frigg'n night of pushing
But I made it

In the morning some nice folk appeared
They gave me some gas but...
I don't think that's what was wrong with it
I had spent all night pushing
And thinking
I only had like 70 bucks
Wasn't even gonna be enough gas to get home
So I definitely didn't have the funds, or the time (or the knowledge) to fix it
So I came up with a plan.
A man with horns on his head was among the kind folk that stopped
He seemed interested in my idea
"I'll trade the motorcycle for a ride to the bus station and a bus ticket home."
Seemed like a pretty good deal for him
The motorcycle probably had some little fix
It was just working perfectly
Got me 500 miles at least before the engine just kinda puttered off
So the thing was definitely worth at least half the price I got it for fixed up.

So I tricked The Devil
'cause if you ask me
A Ticket Home
Is worth way more than a motorcycle.

See yah later NIGHT RIDER



The bus got to NYC the morning of the Eve
I had enough for the commuter rail
And having no idea if she'd be home or not
I walked with all the gifts from the train station
To Her door

It was never about the motorcycle.

I couldn't


 I didn't know what to say

I'M SORRY
YOU'D REACH OUT TO ME IF YOU NEEDED ME RIGHT I'M RIGHT HERE
 I'M SORRY I'M SORRY





I Would Never Disrespect You
Even though I have this Body
And you have yours
And they work like this
Sometimes I hate it how they work like this
I Need You to show me how Beautiful it is
I Can't Love myself with all these terrible things
I Need You to turn these terrible things into Beautiful things
So I Would Never Disrespect You
I Would Rather
Work
And Work
And Be Alone
And Work
And Struggle
And Cry
And Be Cold and Alone and Angry And Lose My Mind a Little
And Work
And JUMP
And Crash and Get Hurt
And Limp
To Your Doorstep
And Give
And Give
And Give
And Earn The Food You Fed Me
And Earn The Clothes Your Mother Gave Me
And Earn A Water Bottle

Than Take One Step
Past The Line in The Sand You Drew
 
 

Can you Feel it?
I can't see You
But I can Hear You
I don't know where You are
But I know where You are in My Heart
I have to hide You in there
People Judge
As I'm sure You've by now learned
And when they see it
The Knife driven in
Sealed with high level Magic
The Wound
Pouring out Darkness
It's that Dark Matter stuff
 Scientists don't even know what to make of this
And I'm on the front lines just carryin' it around
Spreading a very You brand of Chaos
Same brand as mine
But only when people see it
Only when they can Feel it
Can You?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2q01G4te-Ng



I never wanted to lose You
I meant to Free You not hurt You
I hoped I'd see You again
Adventure again
Love again
I still want that
I still hope for that
I don't think you can understand my pain
So that means there's things I need
Things I need that You can't give me
It means I can't Just Be yours
But I Am yours.


 All I Want for Christmas is
To Be Tuxedo Mask.
Can't I just be Tuxedo Mask?
Why Not!?
Okay how about Moonlight Night?
This and Dragon Ball Z is what I grew up on so

This is who I'm deciding to be.
This is who I need to be.
Prince Endymion It Is.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ULPDq02zavs

At the train station after
I noticed a Water Bottle down in the tracks
Certainly a foolhardy thing to do
Jumping down there to grab a Water Bottle
No way out but to Climb
But once I made the connection between you and the bottle
I hoped right down.
I climbed up on the other side of the platform
And had to run through the bus terminal to get back to my stuff on the other side of the tracks.
I knew a lot of people just saw me do that from the windows
So when a child starred at me as I was running by
I reported, with hand to forehead in salute
"WATER BOTTLE EARNED!"

Then there was another bottle so I did it again...

Everything changed once I received their blessing
I wanted to leave earlier
Immediately
But there's people I Love here that I needed to see
And I needed a few days of rest
So I knew I needed to have faith
And I prayed
Plus I didn't have the money yet
So I borrowed some money from My Mother
And got a ticket to New Orleans leaving Jan. 3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ec92Wa8zJs8

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Fly or Die

City Conquering Mode.
I try to Live Up to that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kp7eSUU9oy8


Found an awesome new spot called BuzzMill!


I was here for like five minutes before I decided it was the coolest place in Austin

The best part about this place is that it's 24 hours
AND they have a communal Fire


Set myself up on a table
Got some Bamboo goin'
They gave me a problem when I wanted to cook some root vegetables I acquired at the Farmer's Market over their fire pit
I did it anyways
lol
(Sorry Tim—Needed to Cook these veggies!)

It's mostly outdoor and the dirt ground and the old wood and wooden everything just make it feel so Old Austin.
It's Fantastic.


I used to have one of these plants!
Kalanchoe—Mother of a Thousand

 They like Bears and Dead Things here
Great me too

I sing,
"Brothers Creepin'"
And it hurts when I Do

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Velk1ROk23M


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTL6iSzJ2p4

 Itinerant (American) Worker Mode!

 Good Day of Work!

A saw broke on the job
But I figured I could salvage it...
I wrapped duck tape around newspaper to make a nice handle
It's perfect!
The best saw I've used yet!
My friend at work sharpened the end of it so it's a CUSTOM SAW KNIFE
I call it The HellBlade!

 I watched my friend do the sharpening so I decided to give it a try!

I found this broken spatula
But it looked perfect to me!
I used the sander to smooth the broken jagged bits
And...

I sharpened one side!
So it's a CUSTOM BLADED SPATULA
YAAAAAAAAAS
Also I etched a J on there
'Cause I crafted it myself!

 Don't mind me I'm just a
FUCKING SUPERHERO


 And I am out here
LIVIN' IT

I Live for The Ride

The Ride To You


Clear to Me

 I found a Diamond
In a crack while I was working hard on the Job
Double Dragon Dark Shooting Star

I met a Beautiful couple and gave it to them.
See
I don't care what I get for my work
I care about my work being appreciated and going to whom it is meant to go to
Mr. and Mrs. Bear gave me some food
Which was amazing and special

My first piece using Bone

I think it's a Toad Sternum maybe?
I don't know?
Found it on The Road
Etched away the opening and sealed it to Bamboo with Beeswax

I fought Demons with THIS piece
Pretty sure I slew at least one of 'em...

And a Frenly Purple Shooting Star

These are like the greatest chips I've ever had in my life
Raccoon Mode Level MAX

In addition to trading for food at The Farmer's Market
They also compost a lot of stuff at the end
Perfectly good greens and tomatoes
Just gotta catch 'em (;
Vulture Mode Level MAX


 This meal is all rescued food from various locations
And it was amazing and delicious
Eating a meal of food that was going to go to waste but I personally saved definitely gives an added feeling of pleasure.
I'm sorry I'm Just Too Good.

This dumpster was right on the side of The Road
So one could only access it at like 4am
But dAYUM what finds!
Juice mixes and smoothies and guess what's in that bucket...
PEANUT BUTTER
NEVERMIND ANIMAL SPIRIT ASPECTS
OH THANK YOU LORD FOR THESE GIFTS

 Think I can get away with a fire directly across from the fire station?
Won't know 'til I try lol!

 This person's yard is amazing
This right here is TRUE ART
The Lady came out and gave me water too while I was admiring

That's not a good place for Turtles!!!

 There
That's better
Happy to be of service Mr. 'n Mrs. Turtle :D

I'm able to be a little lighter without the tent and non-essential/valuable things
A secure camp is a valuable thing
Frees up Space/Weight to pick up other things
Like Giant Pumpkins

This dumpster was stuffed with lots of tree branches
I pulled a whole bunch of 'em out and set 'em in a bundle
Giving the gift of a ready-to-go bonfire to the local street folk 'round here

 In the future I gotta get me one of these!

I hope I get my hat back
I'm sure my Sister is keeping it Safe


Dragons are Powerful beings of Love


I wouldn't want to Ness with one at Night

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCnBrrnOefs


Itinerant (American) Worker Construction Mode!


 First day on the new job
"Smash these rocks and move the stuff over there"
 Great.

 
Just being here I'm able to learn so much!
Observation
Questions
Practice
Even laborious menial jobs become joyous when I'm learning stuff or building technique with a new tool !

 
Got fired from the other job
One of the dudes had a big ego
He kept disrespecting me in different ways
Just shrugged most of that stuff off
Also giving me the hard jobs while he chilled on his phone
I didn't care
I find the work itself rewarding
The Harder the better
As long as it's not causing irreparable damage to your body


So the dude knew I wasn't spending any money on anything
One morning he confronts me about tools
Starts saying I can't use his tools anymore
(I didn't even have a problem with the guy
My Way just triggered his ego
And he couldn't beat me lol)
So I pick up a hammer and say,
"Look, we can share this hammer. You're creating a problem."
He says if I won't buy my own tools I can't work for him
I say, "Well I don't work for you, I work for [The owner]"
So at that he walks away

 
The next day I'm told it's my last day
The supervisor man says they just don't need me anymore
I accept that but it doesn't seem to align with what they were telling me when they hired me just like two weeks ago...


So I e-mail the owner just expressing some gratitude about the opportunity
He responds with his disappointment about me causing problems
Quote, "Since you did not want to help out the guys, you were not working and I should 
have not paid you."
So, as I expected, the disrespectful dude underhandedly betrayed me
Misquoted me, and took what I said out of context, to get me fired


Yeah thanks dude for helping me get home
I went by the next day and gave the things that he had given me back
A half-used roll of tape
Two small water bottles
"Nice working with you."

 
I spoke to one of my friends I made there a couple days later
He reported it was a really hard, long day
Yeah, I was the hardest worker there.
Ha.


We live in a Consumer Culture
This is a recurring theme on my blog here
The only way to be Free
Is to Free Your Self of Your Wants


I Want Good Things
I have a vision of my Future
What I'm trying to create
So I'm as Free as I want to be


Rather than working super hard to make someone else a bunch of money
I prefer working at my own pace
(which is pretty damn diligently if I do say so myself)
And working for my own endeavors
My Dreams
My Art
My Love
Lowering my monetary cost of living has allowed me to do this


Woah.
A Tree Replanting Truck.

So the new job was going pretty well
Lots of hard work
Just the way I like it
I was meeting my coworkers and even though most didn't speak English we were eating Lunch and working together well enough and it was good

Third day on the job I finally meet the owner
Greet him with a respectful hand shake
He just asks what I'm doing and what I've been doing
All business no care okay whatever that's fine back to work

So a little later I'm moving some wood from A to B
And I walk by the owner and one of the nice supervisors that gave me the chance to work

The supervisor gives me a new directive on what to do with the wood
Just a little confused I say,
"Oh okay so-and-so said to do this with the wood"

So then the owner steps forward and gets kinda in my face and is like
"WE'RE the boss you do what WE say"
And some other such "no back talk" kinda expression

So Internally I'm just like
What the Fuck?
I give the guy the benefit of the doubt though
Look at him with a raised eyebrow and talk real slow
"Uhmmm, maybe we got off on the wrong foot before..."
I place the wood I'm lugging down on the ground
Extend my hand
"My name's Justin Heriot."

He looks down at my hand and back up to me
"Yeah. I remember you from before."
He does not shake my hand and goes on a tirade about how he's the owner and once again I must follow his orders
I call him out on his disrespectful bullshit
He continues to flip out and tells me to take a hike
So I'm just like,
"Alright."

I go to the offices where LionHeart is parked
By the door to their office
I return the hardhat they let me borrow
I return the reflective vest they gave me
And I leave my cool modded workboots
Then I realize my lunch bag is still by the table in the work site
Right where everyone is.
I briefly consider just leaving it
They can have the food
But then remember there are some important containers that I borrowed and needed to return
So Boom—Gonna Ride Right the Fuck In like a BOSS

Mounted on my Epic Steed
Loaded down with saddles
I ride straight to my Lunch Bag
Gil (the rude owner) does not face me—rather he sends the nice supervisor to address me
"Don't worry Randy, I'm just getting my lunch bag."
He nods and backs off.
I leave a little bag of chips and tortillas for the guys
"Nice to meet to Luis!"
"Nice working with you Leo!"
Marcela asks me what happened
"Owner disrespected me. I wouldn't take it. He fired me. That's who you're working for. Watch out!"
Everyone heard me say THAT.
Most don't look over though
"Nice working with you Gentleman."
As I ride by Gil and Mr. Randy
I simply say
"Respect."

And on the way out
Oh, there's the client!
"What happened? Done already? Heh."
"Gil disrespected me. I wouldn't take it. He fired me. Okay."
And I rode off
Pondering how everyone's perception of Gil was impacted by the whole absurd affair


Now they're together!
<3 Yay <3

I returned on Friday to get my paycheck for my 2.5 days work
As I waited for Gil or Randy
I began working on a little Christmas Present
My previous co-workers walked by with raised eyebrows
"I'm here for what Gil owes me."
"Oh yeah?"
"Yeah. An apology."
I learned he wasn't there
Which is too bad
As I'd of Loved to have faced him.

 Randy approached as I was nearly done,
"Hey, uhm, I won't have your check until... Tomorrow. Sorry, you'll have to come back."
Already a step ahead of them.
"Mr. Randy, you seem like a good man. Could you actually do me a service?"
"Hmm?"
"Well firstly, I have an art piece here for Gil, as a Thank You for the opportunity to work. It's almost done..."
"Well, I'm leaving right now so, leave it over by the trailer there. I'll pass it on to him later."
"Ok sure. As for the check... Can you please make it out to Marcela?"
"What?"
"Yeah, you know, the other man you just hired named Marcela? Please make the check out to him."
"You want me to make your check out to Marcela?"
"Well he's got kids so, yes, please."

He starts to drive off and looks back
"You really want me to give your paycheck Marcela?"
"Yessir."
And away Randy drove.

 Gil will get no Gratitude from me.

Do you like My Music?


I have not spent a single dollar on food in this city once
I get my food in a bunch of different ways
Sometimes people just give me food
Sometimes I find a really great find ina dumpster
Sometimes I'll rescue some peoples' leftovers just before they throw 'em away
Farmers Markets are amazing
Lots of free samples
At the end I go around and offer to help
The produce people will compost a lot of food at the end so helping to go through that is a pretty cool trick
My favorite though is trading art for food
Just about everybody at this Market has a Bamboo Pipe now haha
If you're in Austin
Sundays at 5th and Comal 11-3
Great Time Great People
Thanks ya'll!


Austin is easy mode though when it comes to weather
It's been nothing but sun aside from 2.5 days of straight freezing rain
Just after I was fired from the first job
It was pretty bleak
I just huddled in my tent
Alone
Trying to stay warm and dry


This has actually been a Massive Challenge
Coming into Austin on the bicycle
And trying to establish myself here
Alone
Without spending a Dollar
All while FUCKING BURNING

"You should be Dead!"

 Still Above The Ground
Still Fightin' The Good Fight


The World doesn't always let me be this

My Heart is Rock Solid

 Rather than Judge me
As some are want to do
People aught to speak with me and learn what I have learned from my experience
 
 I am what I am doing.
I am this because it is who I want to be.
What will being me—this me—Do?
What will happen to me?
Where and How will I apply
My Free Will?

Example of Free Will
This Blog!

 All Art—actually—is a good example of Free Will
That's what makes Art so cool!
What are you doing with your Will?
What are you creating?

Quote of the Month:
"Y'know what's better than Meth? Me!!"

Of Course I Want Victory
We're ALL trying to win

Victory is MUTUAL LOVE
If I don't have that
THEN I HAVE NOTHING

It's okay if you Fall and are Playing

 
 Just don't have wicked intentions

See your wickedness and turn away


And if you wanna go play around in the Darkness
Just know there's a cost

I'm not playing.

Difference between
"We don't talk much because the relationship is frozen in time and there's an eclipse"

And
"It is an emergency"

What makes sense to me is to Face It.
EVERYTHING.

 Who decides what Love is more Beautiful?
And How?
Is Beauty Mathematical?

 I've found it's a malleable force
An Energy that we CAN control
In different ways

What we do with our Love
How we Express it
How we Honor it
How we Carry it
Who we Share it with
What Emotions we Accept and Enjoy and Seek
And what we Reject and Dislike and Avoid

I See

You

Everywhere


I Just Hope y'all Hear Me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M5pInLyxeys


 They can't catch me

 The second time I went back to BuzzMill
I returned to the same table I was working on
Close to the fire
With an outlet for my wood burner
Perfect

And I noticed inscribed
"My Name is Justice."
Yes
This is my table

I had many people at my table the past few weeks
Many discussions
Many Lessons

I find all the things I'm struggling with have given me much Wisdom and Perspective

Sometimes it's a Battle
Sometimes I help people
This is what I'm doing out here

I can't illustrate the emotions or the timing
But on one of the last nights I went to BuzzMill

This was all written on my table
Right where I sit

Regardless
My Home is always Your Home
I will always Care about You
That's what we made together


 My Love is in Bloom

Living it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znSAWRlWi-Y